Ladies and gentlemen, i am happy. For a time i have been waking up next to my man, for some mornings i've made coffee to my husband. And to meet those smiling eyes open makes me look forward to another day, life is great, together with you.

some time pass midnight

the tiredness hasn't got less. today has been headache and what not. yesterday i started with some handicraft. thought it would be stress relieving and make me have my anger under control. now i'm obsessed. i'm making a rug for my room. it has the colors red, pink, brown, yellow and black.

the dogs are running up and down the street in their pack again. they are beautiful. there is a couple of them that looks like giant muscles. strong hunters. they run the street at nights, looks at me when passin by. in the early morning you can see one of them sort of running home after a late night out. as if he was in a hurry back before getting caught.

i was sitting at my usual spot the other evening, wishing myself a puppy, a dog to guard my side as a dog actually came to me. it started sniffing around at the front of the shop. circling around me and the table. walking up and down the front for a while before it set off again. very cute this one.

i'm sitting and waiting to close now. someone still using the laptop... i'm yawning...

it's really cool today. has been raining quite heavy today and now it strted again. burr. Feels like the temperature must have dropped to atleast 25 celcius/ i want hot cocoa, a blanket and a hug.

been a weird month now. business wise i guess it's been alright, but personal... My god it sucks! crap de luxe!

i'm packing....

3 floors in China Town

- i got poo-water to my armpits for god sake.

the doorbell rings and the washing machine starts playing that ridiculous melody telling it is ready.
its the last couple checking-in today, a young couple from hong kong just getting a great 1st impression of the owner aka manager wearing pink rubber gloves reaching her elbows.

-welcome to borneo, i grin.

after four months of having the guesthouse running with two floors we just opened and finished our rooms on the 3rd, just in time for the check-ins. My brain has been out of control and the tiredness has had its effect on my body and mind, obviously my mood aswell... But still standing and smiling at the guests even though my head is spinning and from time to time feeling i might actually fall.
After the first hectic time of getting used to a third floor and it's starts settling in my mind and work and i can feel i have everything under control, the 1st floor bathroom gets blocked. Panic, nothing works. The whole day i try fix it without any luck. It's poo water to the edge of the toiletbowl, the smell is awful and i gag more times than i could count. And since i'm alone i'm working with poo, checking-in people, being a tourist guide, answering the phone, answering the door at the same time. wohoo. But i made it! goddamn i made it, so that poo on the floor last night since someone obviously missed the toilet bowl wasn't too bad. haha, ok poo is always bad, clean after yourself! damn pratt!

Again, sunday.

One week later, i'm having headache everyday, i'm on ephedrine which makes me wanna puke and sleep, antibiotics, headache pills, sleeping pills (which i haven't been able to try yet, maybe i make a collection for next time...). Tomorrow my lab-results should be ready so i'm off to the doctor again, yey... Then we are supposed to discuss further about pills pills pills.

Sunday

My mind is a restless place today. I feel so unsatisfied with everything. Business is good, i have a new worker and everything (sort of) is fine. I feel like screaming really loud or go horseback riding in the mountain fields, get lost or something...

singapore weekend

a weekend off, in love

I just came back from Singapore. I spent two nights there at Sentosa Island - Resort World together with my evil E. If i could put this weekend into one short sentence it would be: life is great!

So on friday the 14th of may me and ernesto headed to the air-port in kuching, flying off for the first time together. Just that in itself felt a bit strange, almost a bit scary but exciting. ho ho. We have never gone anywhere just the two of us so that was an experience in itself. And how great it ended up being....

In singapore we headed for sentosa island-resort world where we would spend our weekend at the casino, universal studios, shopping and what not. We checked in at hard rock hotel, where we headed for the bar and bought us a beer each and cheered before checking out our room (487) which was really nice with a view of the water. Everything so clean and nice since it just opened. The room itself invited for some romantic action, hee hee.

Later that night it was time to enter the casino, i never (!!) go to a casino before so i was very excited but a bit nervous at the same time. To get to the entrance you first need to take this long long escalator downstairs and this music is playing in the background at the same time which sound sort of a theme song to a movie, so going in the escalator makes you feel like you are in a movie starring yourself with these nice lights shifting in color....

At the entrance you must first show your passport and after that me and evil e became members at the casino as well (hee hee i got a member card with my picture on it), you can collect points and stuff for like hotels and such at the resort...

Entering the massive hall was quite an experience, i felt like giggling and clung on to ernesto. we headed for the roulette tables and from starting out with almost nothing i can tell you everything this weekend was paid for and far more than that, i never seen so much money in my life. hahaha. A number was tripled, it came up 3 times in a row. what are the odds for that!? haha. I can get used to visiting casinos, it was a strange world, dangerous but oh so fun...

And this weekend i have felt so beautiful, i have felt like a princess, or more like a queen. Being together with my favorite man treating me like i never been treated before...
On saturday morning we woke and headed fir the universal studio where we walked around and took rides until we couldnt take it no more. haha. and it was great fun. we ate good food, we took a lot pictures and i got to do this with the man who means most to me makes everything perfect. After we went back to the room where we had a short nap before going to the city by cab for some shopping at orchard street....

and i couldnt help but laugh and tell ernesto how fun it felt to be this girl with a wealthy man buying me whatever i wanted. i ended up with a beautiful dress from Warehouse (i got a killer ass in it) and a necklace from topshop. ernesto bought some nice shirts for himself at topman. we were actually quite exhausted so after our shopping we just headed back to the island and had a rest before getting ready for some more gambling. And my god we looked good! me in my new dress, shining gold... ernesto hot as usual wearing one of the new shirts. i love the look and feeling of us together and i can say people has given us quite some eyes this weekend at the resort. :D

i love this weekend and i can live on this for a long long long long long time. to go away for a couple of nights, to spend some time with evil e...

and i finally got the courage to say those words i maybe not necessarily would have to say because i hope what i mean is felt, but i just had to have it said. and it felt wonderful doing so. small, tiny words but with everything i feel.


life is good and im in love


(i will put up some pictures from the weekend here or on facebook later)