fredag 21 maj 2010
söndag 16 maj 2010
a weekend off, in love
I just came back from Singapore. I spent two nights there at Sentosa Island - Resort World together with my evil E. If i could put this weekend into one short sentence it would be: life is great!
So on friday the 14th of may me and ernesto headed to the air-port in kuching, flying off for the first time together. Just that in itself felt a bit strange, almost a bit scary but exciting. ho ho. We have never gone anywhere just the two of us so that was an experience in itself. And how great it ended up being....
In singapore we headed for sentosa island-resort world where we would spend our weekend at the casino, universal studios, shopping and what not. We checked in at hard rock hotel, where we headed for the bar and bought us a beer each and cheered before checking out our room (487) which was really nice with a view of the water. Everything so clean and nice since it just opened. The room itself invited for some romantic action, hee hee.
Later that night it was time to enter the casino, i never (!!) go to a casino before so i was very excited but a bit nervous at the same time. To get to the entrance you first need to take this long long escalator downstairs and this music is playing in the background at the same time which sound sort of a theme song to a movie, so going in the escalator makes you feel like you are in a movie starring yourself with these nice lights shifting in color....
At the entrance you must first show your passport and after that me and evil e became members at the casino as well (hee hee i got a member card with my picture on it), you can collect points and stuff for like hotels and such at the resort...
Entering the massive hall was quite an experience, i felt like giggling and clung on to ernesto. we headed for the roulette tables and from starting out with almost nothing i can tell you everything this weekend was paid for and far more than that, i never seen so much money in my life. hahaha. A number was tripled, it came up 3 times in a row. what are the odds for that!? haha. I can get used to visiting casinos, it was a strange world, dangerous but oh so fun...
And this weekend i have felt so beautiful, i have felt like a princess, or more like a queen. Being together with my favorite man treating me like i never been treated before...
On saturday morning we woke and headed fir the universal studio where we walked around and took rides until we couldnt take it no more. haha. and it was great fun. we ate good food, we took a lot pictures and i got to do this with the man who means most to me makes everything perfect. After we went back to the room where we had a short nap before going to the city by cab for some shopping at orchard street....
and i couldnt help but laugh and tell ernesto how fun it felt to be this girl with a wealthy man buying me whatever i wanted. i ended up with a beautiful dress from Warehouse (i got a killer ass in it) and a necklace from topshop. ernesto bought some nice shirts for himself at topman. we were actually quite exhausted so after our shopping we just headed back to the island and had a rest before getting ready for some more gambling. And my god we looked good! me in my new dress, shining gold... ernesto hot as usual wearing one of the new shirts. i love the look and feeling of us together and i can say people has given us quite some eyes this weekend at the resort. :D
i love this weekend and i can live on this for a long long long long long time. to go away for a couple of nights, to spend some time with evil e...
and i finally got the courage to say those words i maybe not necessarily would have to say because i hope what i mean is felt, but i just had to have it said. and it felt wonderful doing so. small, tiny words but with everything i feel.
life is good and im in love
(i will put up some pictures from the weekend here or on facebook later)
So on friday the 14th of may me and ernesto headed to the air-port in kuching, flying off for the first time together. Just that in itself felt a bit strange, almost a bit scary but exciting. ho ho. We have never gone anywhere just the two of us so that was an experience in itself. And how great it ended up being....
In singapore we headed for sentosa island-resort world where we would spend our weekend at the casino, universal studios, shopping and what not. We checked in at hard rock hotel, where we headed for the bar and bought us a beer each and cheered before checking out our room (487) which was really nice with a view of the water. Everything so clean and nice since it just opened. The room itself invited for some romantic action, hee hee.
Later that night it was time to enter the casino, i never (!!) go to a casino before so i was very excited but a bit nervous at the same time. To get to the entrance you first need to take this long long escalator downstairs and this music is playing in the background at the same time which sound sort of a theme song to a movie, so going in the escalator makes you feel like you are in a movie starring yourself with these nice lights shifting in color....
At the entrance you must first show your passport and after that me and evil e became members at the casino as well (hee hee i got a member card with my picture on it), you can collect points and stuff for like hotels and such at the resort...
Entering the massive hall was quite an experience, i felt like giggling and clung on to ernesto. we headed for the roulette tables and from starting out with almost nothing i can tell you everything this weekend was paid for and far more than that, i never seen so much money in my life. hahaha. A number was tripled, it came up 3 times in a row. what are the odds for that!? haha. I can get used to visiting casinos, it was a strange world, dangerous but oh so fun...
And this weekend i have felt so beautiful, i have felt like a princess, or more like a queen. Being together with my favorite man treating me like i never been treated before...
On saturday morning we woke and headed fir the universal studio where we walked around and took rides until we couldnt take it no more. haha. and it was great fun. we ate good food, we took a lot pictures and i got to do this with the man who means most to me makes everything perfect. After we went back to the room where we had a short nap before going to the city by cab for some shopping at orchard street....
and i couldnt help but laugh and tell ernesto how fun it felt to be this girl with a wealthy man buying me whatever i wanted. i ended up with a beautiful dress from Warehouse (i got a killer ass in it) and a necklace from topshop. ernesto bought some nice shirts for himself at topman. we were actually quite exhausted so after our shopping we just headed back to the island and had a rest before getting ready for some more gambling. And my god we looked good! me in my new dress, shining gold... ernesto hot as usual wearing one of the new shirts. i love the look and feeling of us together and i can say people has given us quite some eyes this weekend at the resort. :D
i love this weekend and i can live on this for a long long long long long time. to go away for a couple of nights, to spend some time with evil e...
and i finally got the courage to say those words i maybe not necessarily would have to say because i hope what i mean is felt, but i just had to have it said. and it felt wonderful doing so. small, tiny words but with everything i feel.
life is good and im in love
(i will put up some pictures from the weekend here or on facebook later)
tisdag 11 maj 2010
cute goes crazy
i heard this funny thing, quite flattering actually. a guy from stockholm told me the other night as i was checking the e-mail before going to bed that i'm always cute and very cute when i sort of "make" myself cute, but it was when i was as natural as i can be and not thinking that i almost look a bit crazy and that was just the way it's supposed to be and that he likes the most about me. hahaha
måndag 10 maj 2010
in love on a peaceful night
From full house to a few, some time for myself and a chance to get some rest....
been cleaning today. had a check-out at 6am, and from there it has been laundry, laundry, laundry and finally i got to vacuum-clean the floors and i mopped the ground floor twice. :) So satisfying.
I'm in love with life and feelings.. listening to Santo & Johnny - sleep walk, moonlight serenade, put your head on my shoulder (...) and other artists and oldies and covers performed by so many. and i feel in love watching out from behind the counter through the window out on the street, waiting for a familiar face to ride up with his white stallion and look at me... hee hee. girly.
outside the window, a dingo with hunter eyes running up the street...
i saw a picture from the streets in stockholm last night. it was a picture of a mother with her child, the background of the citys gray facades, and i felt like i wanted to be her. last summer i spent some time with the girls and we talked about what we never dreamed of a few years ago, having our own families and actually maybe just settle, stop this "atleast 3-times-a-week-visit-to-the-bar" (nowadays i'm actually sober though...), we laughed at ourselves getting older and also how our thoughts were just a few years back and now we were watching other mothers with their children at the playground, and maybe picturing ourselves in their position. it was just something in everyones eyes this summer as we sat as single girls having picnic in the grass watching those moms...
i actually felt like i was about to write about something tonight in the blog but i turned as usual into nothing really. nevermind, thats me. now cigarette and coffee. amen.
been cleaning today. had a check-out at 6am, and from there it has been laundry, laundry, laundry and finally i got to vacuum-clean the floors and i mopped the ground floor twice. :) So satisfying.
I'm in love with life and feelings.. listening to Santo & Johnny - sleep walk, moonlight serenade, put your head on my shoulder (...) and other artists and oldies and covers performed by so many. and i feel in love watching out from behind the counter through the window out on the street, waiting for a familiar face to ride up with his white stallion and look at me... hee hee. girly.
outside the window, a dingo with hunter eyes running up the street...
i saw a picture from the streets in stockholm last night. it was a picture of a mother with her child, the background of the citys gray facades, and i felt like i wanted to be her. last summer i spent some time with the girls and we talked about what we never dreamed of a few years ago, having our own families and actually maybe just settle, stop this "atleast 3-times-a-week-visit-to-the-bar" (nowadays i'm actually sober though...), we laughed at ourselves getting older and also how our thoughts were just a few years back and now we were watching other mothers with their children at the playground, and maybe picturing ourselves in their position. it was just something in everyones eyes this summer as we sat as single girls having picnic in the grass watching those moms...
i actually felt like i was about to write about something tonight in the blog but i turned as usual into nothing really. nevermind, thats me. now cigarette and coffee. amen.
torsdag 29 april 2010
reflections...
Been quite some time since i wrote anything at all here. Almost two months. Been hectic since the opening of Threehouse, a lot to learn, but most came just naturally, a lot of work and quite a lot to think about since i am here alone. Many different nationalities has already stayed here and many persons has become memorable. I can see that different countries have certain ways of acting, without saying people are different from country to country, but i can see different ways of behavior and being social and of course from there people have different personalities.
i have been happy lately, i have succeeded to actually do something in life, and i would like to think it is quite of a big thing. thanks to having such a wonderful person as ernesto helping me out i have come more far in 1 year of my life than struggling back and forth for years in depression. i have learned that i can do, and that i dont necessarily need to fail.
Labour-day... tiny tiny raindrops falling from the sky, like the mist from a spray-bottle, the wind catches it and blows it onto my skin. Cooling.
Not the best morning in life to wake up, i woke up late from probably turning off the alarm in my sleep since i did set it before bed last night. i was supposed to wake up at 5am, E was going fishing but instead i woke up at 7.30. Fail. i hope he went anyway and caught a lot of fish and enjoyed his day , he didnt say anything this morning...
i had a hard time falling asleep last night even though i need every minute of sleep i can get. i was up for a long time listening to the footsteps of the guests walking back and forth on the wooden floors upstairs. it was as if they were louder than ever before, penetrating my ears together with my mind and body that has been bubbling and sparkling with love and a dash of anxiety. i feel like i want to say something, i think its understood already, but i feel like i need to say it, express and explain my feelings, hopefully without making a mess. and that is what im afraid of. i would like to ask something...
Earlier this week i was suppose to get a guy working here but it didnt happen, ernesto explained to me though that he had been watching him and saw that he was actually quite lazy and also not so very good in english so in the end it would have been just a waste of time and money. even though i get a worker i will stay here on spot most of the time. hopefully i get just a little bit more of sleep and maybe some time to myself going outside the building. hehe, after not going outside for 2 months it starts messing with your head a little if you get a bit tired and weak (especially when catching a cold and getting fever at the same time), the combo is just strange and a bit scary since you are dealing with people, money, bookings... but i went through it! :) and what was the saying... what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. last night ernesto told me that there are 2 girls coming here to work for two months. one will be put in tracks and one here. we were looking for a guy to put here actually but it has to work for now. ernesto made fun of the fact that it is a girl and the very local way with girls here so i will become "sister", my god(!), haha. i know about it too well already, a bit strange but flattering the first time it happens but when it becomes more frequent its just, i dont know what it is. i say, -girl, i aint your sistah, im your boss lah. hehe. i hope it will work out, yup it will, just keep the line....
it is like 28 days until my mom and brother gets here. quite exciting. i hope i can bring my mom out a little. i promised to bring her to massage, hopefully i could bring her together with ernesto and maybe some of the other guys. i know she would love that. ernesto means a lot to her.
if today was in normal life it would feel like a sunday... im finishing the chocolate ice-cream me and E was sharing last night, feeling a bit down of the failure this morning, the street is quiet outside, threehouse is quiet, all the guests went out except for the guys of the italian and swedish couple.
maybe i go clean a little.
i have been happy lately, i have succeeded to actually do something in life, and i would like to think it is quite of a big thing. thanks to having such a wonderful person as ernesto helping me out i have come more far in 1 year of my life than struggling back and forth for years in depression. i have learned that i can do, and that i dont necessarily need to fail.
Labour-day... tiny tiny raindrops falling from the sky, like the mist from a spray-bottle, the wind catches it and blows it onto my skin. Cooling.
Not the best morning in life to wake up, i woke up late from probably turning off the alarm in my sleep since i did set it before bed last night. i was supposed to wake up at 5am, E was going fishing but instead i woke up at 7.30. Fail. i hope he went anyway and caught a lot of fish and enjoyed his day , he didnt say anything this morning...
i had a hard time falling asleep last night even though i need every minute of sleep i can get. i was up for a long time listening to the footsteps of the guests walking back and forth on the wooden floors upstairs. it was as if they were louder than ever before, penetrating my ears together with my mind and body that has been bubbling and sparkling with love and a dash of anxiety. i feel like i want to say something, i think its understood already, but i feel like i need to say it, express and explain my feelings, hopefully without making a mess. and that is what im afraid of. i would like to ask something...
Earlier this week i was suppose to get a guy working here but it didnt happen, ernesto explained to me though that he had been watching him and saw that he was actually quite lazy and also not so very good in english so in the end it would have been just a waste of time and money. even though i get a worker i will stay here on spot most of the time. hopefully i get just a little bit more of sleep and maybe some time to myself going outside the building. hehe, after not going outside for 2 months it starts messing with your head a little if you get a bit tired and weak (especially when catching a cold and getting fever at the same time), the combo is just strange and a bit scary since you are dealing with people, money, bookings... but i went through it! :) and what was the saying... what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. last night ernesto told me that there are 2 girls coming here to work for two months. one will be put in tracks and one here. we were looking for a guy to put here actually but it has to work for now. ernesto made fun of the fact that it is a girl and the very local way with girls here so i will become "sister", my god(!), haha. i know about it too well already, a bit strange but flattering the first time it happens but when it becomes more frequent its just, i dont know what it is. i say, -girl, i aint your sistah, im your boss lah. hehe. i hope it will work out, yup it will, just keep the line....
it is like 28 days until my mom and brother gets here. quite exciting. i hope i can bring my mom out a little. i promised to bring her to massage, hopefully i could bring her together with ernesto and maybe some of the other guys. i know she would love that. ernesto means a lot to her.
if today was in normal life it would feel like a sunday... im finishing the chocolate ice-cream me and E was sharing last night, feeling a bit down of the failure this morning, the street is quiet outside, threehouse is quiet, all the guests went out except for the guys of the italian and swedish couple.
maybe i go clean a little.
lördag 13 mars 2010
Happy Birthday to me and Threehouse
the best and biggest birthday and opening. i love us THREE, i love ernesto for helping me out and making me believe in myself, my dreams and that i am capable of doing whatever i want in life.
(mamma, klicka på bilderna så ser du hela bilden)
the THREE
i had no idea they had a cake for me, i do not understand how they hide it for me
ernesto and i
(mamma, klicka på bilderna så ser du hela bilden)
the THREE
i had no idea they had a cake for me, i do not understand how they hide it for me
ernesto and i
torsdag 4 mars 2010
To mom
Hej mamma. Här är lite bilder på hur det ser ut nu. Jag hoppas att du kan komma o bo här snart med mig. Kram.
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